For a very long time I have always strived to be the perfect sister, daugher and friend. I was not very happy with myself, my habits and I tried so many ways to change them. I cared way too much of others opnions about myself and how my habits drove me to worse ones. It felt like my world was spinning out of control and that my plans for my future were falling out of order. I had strived for my character to grow, so that I could be the person I needed to be.

I thought that when I became that person I became satisfied with having a relationship with myself and no one else, that would be when I would be happy about life again. A while ago, a very wise friend told me that before anything can fall into place you have to trust that God will make things fall right into place. My whole perspective had changed of the things I was trying to achieve. Me wanting to better myself had started morphing into wanting to be a better me in God’s eyes.

My relationship with God had started to become a priority. I had found so much more satisfaction with my life than I would have ever had anywhere else. I became less and less about me trying to be satisfied with me being my own companion and more of God being my greatest friend and companion. God has made me realize that my fragments could never fall into place without him.