~* “A great friend is something to be cherished, whether the remain by my side in this life or wait for me in the next.” *~

This is probably going to be one of the hardest posts I have written so far. On March 30th 2024, I have lost my best friend, since 2011 Michael Hess (Full names is Paul Michael Hess, but because him and his father had the same name we called him Michael for no confusion of who we were talking to. Besides myself and his father.) Michael was someone that stuck by me through everything. He even treated my daughter like she was his (Her father does not exist in her life). I would tell him everything and I mean everything. I have struggled in the past and he got me through some of my darkest times. He would give me the best advice to pull me out of the darkest parts of my head. What hurts the worst is the fact I didn’t get a chance to say goodbye because his own sister kept his phone and would not let me communicate with him during his last few weeks. I had to find out through his Aunt. The frustration I have right now is killing me on the inside. Now who do I talk to? The one person I would want to talk to is no longer here. He will always be in my heart and never forgotten. I really am trying so hard to keep it together.

I know in life there are losses and that these losses can never be replaced. Losing Michael has been the hardest by far and I am not ready to say good-bye. I would give anything, and I mean anything to have one more day. Our friendship bond that we had can never be broken. I know that he is not here physically I know his heart is and it will live within me. I was never ready for this day, this moment for him to leave but he left and I will continue to relive the memories and to share those memories with my daughter what a real good friend looks like.