Wow 5 months into 2024 already it is going by fast. Well, let’s play catch up: so follow up on my weight loss I am now down 31 pounds which is freaking awesome. Still trying to maneuver through my love life. I am still insisting on not wanting a relationship and I am thinking I am getting to my root cause. It has been a long time since I could say that I love myself. I don’t mean that in a conceited way, but the saying goes “if you can’t love yourself, you can’t love another.” My mother reminded me of that when my daughter asked me the question, “Mom, do you love yourself?” I answered quickly and said “No” because I wanted her to know that I wasn’t self-absorbed, not really getting the question at hand. And that would be when my mother responded with, “if you can’t love yourself, you will never be able to love another.” Yeah, my brain was so far in left field. But with that it has prompted me to actually seek some actual help. After my last relationship being told one thing like, “I’m different and not like others.” And then goes and proves to me that he is like most and goes off and cheats without any communication and then blaming me like I’m the issue. So yeah, the relationships I’ve been in are probably where most of my problems lie. So, it is still 2024 and with it being 5 months in I have time to work on me, because I am a huge work in progress.