Melissa Tomaziefski

“A hidden connection is stronger than an obvious one”

Here I go again falling for a guy that is way out of my league. At least he is not married, not going down that road. Found out he is recently single not sure how long but, he is super sweet and really hot. Of course I have the tendency to go after men that are way out of my jurisdiction. I have such a fear of rejection that I am petrified to even ask him out for a drink or grab dinner. Because I am so use to hearing the word “NO.” My insecurities get the best me because how I was treated in past relationships. I have grown as a person from the past and that has what made me a stronger person today but it constantly makes me doubt myself and I worry how people perceive me. I have been working on myself and I am slowly getting there. Time will tell of course it will be when this guy has a new girl and I will be shit out of luck. My weight is one of the biggest issues I have but I completely proud of myself because I am slowly getting where I want to be. I went from a 46 inch waist to a 38 inch waist from following a work out plan from a friend in my workplace. I watch what I eat and drink and I exercise daily. Now I am having surgery this upcoming Thursday on my left hand for carpal tunnel. I have told myself that even if I can’t lift weights I at least still want to get on the treadmill at the gym so I don’t get set backwards. Now back to this crush, he is also fit and again here I am not so fit, curvy and short. I mean there is a saying that short girls come is great packages. I just have to get the courage to ask him but I am not doing it anytime soon.

“Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn’t? Try hard not to fight your feelings, but couldn’t? With every passing day I fall deeper but I try to hide it in every possible way.”

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